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I feel so alone today it feels as if I have nobody in my life I feel overwhelmed with not having enough to make ends meet. I feel as if I work really hard and still struggling financially. I have 2 much on my plate. I know god is with me but I feel somtimes he leaves me, other days I feel like what I'm I doing so wrong to get his grace,mercy & prosperity....I do try to stay faithful, its hard sometimes to stay positive at times

I am so frustrated and confused. I know that the company that I work for is a legitamite business (well at least it was when I was a young girl). But every time I try to post an advertisement I keep getting rejected. I rechecked company guidelines after posting on here and have found that even the sites proposed do not accept advertising. I wish something could be done about scammers so that legitimate businesses could get off the ground.

I have had 3 scammers on my business website in the past 2 weeks. One of my prospects never emailed me back so that I could help her/him get started. This is VERY frustrating. Everyone says, "Pray, things are going to get better if you just put it in GOD's hands." 

Well, I have put everything in GOD's hands and nothing good is happening yet. I'm still having relationship problems, I'm still having health problems (especially this winter), my son is still having problems behavioral and emotionally,  my daughters are scared to ride their school bus because of gang violence (yes, we have gangs in southern WV), I still don't have transportation of my own (public transportation is not free; costs more than $5.00 to go anywhere), I haven't made much money working especially since I can't get out to interact with potential customers and recruits. 

This bites rump. The more I try the more things go wrong. I am just about ready to give up. But I won't, cause I'm not that type of person. I will keep on trying. I will keep on praying. I will keep on hoping. Peace can't be too far off, I just need to be patient and wait my turn for a blessing. But GOD how much longer will this waiting have to be endured before happiness comes along.

Should I stay or should I go

Should I hide or should I show

What are these feelings consuming my soul

Why they keep me from acheiving pleasant goals

I don't know if I should care

I don't know if I should dare

I hold my head high

Higher than the sky

Life goes on by

I hang my head and sigh

Cause I know one day soon

that I will once again croon

I had thought about posting my pic in my profile...I have to admitt that at first i was too embarrassed thinking that someone i know might see.Then i thought that hey when your desperate and you have children to care for,you just don't care about what others think.I posted a pic and am debating on showing off my lil one's!  Is anyone near sacramento? If so please get in touch and maybe i can help in some way.My heart breaks for all those who are hurting.Lets all band together and help eachother keep our children safe,fed and clothed.I am disabled so i'm home most of the day,i don't have much space but there's parks,etc.Maybe i can help a family with babysitting or something in that manor.Just a thought.Good luck to you all.

  All is beautiful here in the Virgin Islands but like anywhere there is a down side.

I have been giving thought to going back to the States for many reasons but the real inspiration to this thought is my son.Education is the factor I'm leary about down here.

I haven't been stateside in 16yrs.{maybe that's the other inspiration}I do believe we live in an almost third world environment-although just like anywhere things are changing here as well.

The economy is suffering and as that drifts down here without tourism there is less money flow.  People are lossing jobs and violence is increasing.I'm not saying it's ant more dangerous then anyplace else however we are confined to an island.I DON'T KNOW JUST SOME THOUGHTS i'M HAVING.Gotta put the little guy down for a nap.many blessings

Out of the blue it is like a light went on in my head and now i get it. i have been sober for almost 5 months yet i still had the thinking of a drunk, with following the process and attending meetings and group sessions i still did not feel as if i was being healed from this illness and that is because in my mind i was still playing the victim. i went from drinking to cover up pain past and present to treating people badly and felt it was justified because of the things i had gone through. the bible says when my people who are called by my name humble themselves and pray then i will heal the land. it was not until i began to humble myself did i feel i was being healed from this disease. i had to forgive all that i felt was done wrong to me. i had to stop thinking i was better then others and start treating people with respect. i had to stop justifying my actions and start asking people to forgive me. all i want is to be happy and sober and enjoy life with out holding on the horrible past. I LET IT GO!. so now with a clear mind and a new heart i am ready to recieve healing and i find not only is staying sober within my grasp. I am being healed from things i hand no idea i held on too for so many years. To wrap this up I have learned that changing the way we think can and will change a situation!

You know I thought I had we had it really bad but reading some posts from other people it opens your eyes and your heart!!! I know as soon as I get up on my feet I am going to do something to help others!!

This in NO way is meant to put any one down, we all have differnt wants, needs and wishes....

Many on here seem to be asking for financial support, or at least of what I have read...

All I need it thoughts and prayers, more for the children that all the changes that will be taking place in their lives will not change them in a bad way!

I know it will be hard in many ways (yes financially too) but it is for the best.  It is for our health, safety and hopefully happiness. 

I do hope when these changes take place things go smoothly and easily without a lot of trouble and road blocks!